I feel your heartbeat through your chest
and when you hold me I can’t mistake this for a game
The words you tell me are always sincerely spoken
And when I talk to you I don’t have to say your name
You always listen with patience and understanding
I know the quest for trust has gone on for far too long
As every day after the shift I am still learning
Thank God your faith in us is wonderful and strong
by Katrina
Stretching these threads threads that connect us
as we go about our days
Crafting words out of mind and syncing when we
see the sun’s rays
Working together for the greater possibilities
that we might share
We know that in love and war it is said
that all’s not fair.
But we do our best to be real, honest, and
true to our word
Even when the situations get difficult, scary, or
however absurd
We’re learning ways to be independent as well as
ways to connect
And I’m making up for lost time with the mistakes
I correct.
by Katrina
Hearts take shape looking through glass
Afraid to break it after what’s come to pass
When will we find the edges and come to meet?
Had we atoned? Can we walk on our feet?
Or do our new choices count for sin if flesh was due
We forgive each other but can you?
Connected by stars, love’s not lost, it’s just transformed
And the universe has its way of keeping me informed
of the role I play, and what I must become
to see that in time, this game is won.
by Katrina
The echoes of my wounds don’t make me
But express to me my change of course is right
I’ll re-educate myself and do what’s demanded
Because your spirits are shining bright
I’m grateful for the ones who illuminate me
Don’t have hate towards those in the dark
Not wanting to be a hypocrite is my new polarity
If you need to light a candle I’ll be your spark
by Katrina
It’s been years since I first laid eyes on you,
But getting to this point- I never knew
I always thought I’d be medicated into dumbness
But my choline is corrected and I am not abusing numbness
I feel gratitude for our conversations
And forming this bond with you under constellations
As we align and overcome challenges
In my heart I’m building bridges
I want to uplift and propel you in whatever direction you want to go
You’re the person I most deeply want to know.
by Katrina
When I prayed I felt the weight of His embrace
It is said that love prevails so I may yet win this race
If I can quell my fears and demons after I’ve repented
A path to a brighter future can actually be cemented
The signs and songs align me to a better pace of time
Where I feel the freedom I need to write each new rhyme.
I keep my head steady and silence the noise,
understanding now that I have a role with my pen and voice.
by Katrina
Curses lifted from me as I keep hope alive
Pages inspired and now I strive
To keep writing on my own
And for the ones who illuminate me
I feel as though my heart has grown
Determination will set me free.
by Katrina
We make amends but it takes time to see the fruits
Likewise sifting through scatterback brings me back to my roots
I still pray even though I said I’d meditate, I feel heard
Signs and unity with family bring me an encouraging word
Maybe someday I’ll be able to stop telling lies to myself
I’m turning new leaves and this brings me newfound wealth
There’s less pressure on me now to be a perfect being
But I feel like the more I strive the feathers will grow back on my wings.
by Katrina
Trying so hard to align but doubts linger
I mask the wreckage of my heart and wonder
Will the forces of my perception let me focus?
But you were real with me and it’s colored my mind
I almost don’t believe I heard you tell me.
by Katrina
I couldn’t hear through the darkness of the nam-shub
but I did my best to be diligent and learned to don scrubs
not everything’s perfect in this new house though it may look nice
I have to be sure I never make a mistake and check at least twice
I don’t want to leave my mother when I’m all she has here
But I’m changing my ways and making amends, to be clear
Not everything can happen overnight but I’m thinking on things
I know you’re tired of being patient with me but I’ve got strings.
by Katrina